Lately...

I've been feeling so distraught lately. But not in an ordinary way. It's like a quiet aggravation residing in me from the moment I wake up. I really felt it today, not like I acted on it or anything, I just recognized its weight, its presence. I don't know what's up but I'll tell you right now, it's not me and it's not good. It's possible that I'm PMSing to an extreme because this is that week but I'm not too sure that can take all the blame. I suppose it could also be the stress of finals being next week but I'm really not that stressed JUST yet. I'll get there though, don't worry. I looked at myself at around 12:30pm today and I still had my sleepy face on, even though I had been awake since 8am. It was like I was groggy all morning. I know this may be stretching it, but my eyes seem darker too. I mean, my eyes tend to change color with clothes (they'll be more gray, blue or green depending on the color of my clothing) and tears (they tend to lighten after a good cry), but I've never noticed them just darkening to like a dark teal-ish gray out of nowhere. Strange. 

I emailed a mental health advice nurse today to see if I could get help on some body issues I've had for years, which is good. Not that the issues are good but that I got the nerve to actually email her and seek the help. It's gotten rather overwhelming lately. I hope that this will be useful and that they won't turn me away due to insurance policies cause that's just mean. 

What else? Oh gosh. I'm just tired. I want to lay in the sun and read Fitzgerald.